On one of those disheartening days… when I was suffering from the lack of faith regarding certain facts in my life… when I stopped believing in adoration, and treated it as if it is poisoned built-in idea that should be disregarded …When I thought that all I can sense here, in the cancer center which I work for, and will always will is abhorrence and death… When I was certain about all that… I found love… standing with its head raised high, as if it was waiting for me, to declare, that in spite all the soreness and pain I see or feel or touch or face, it will always be there, and will always rise above all that… and will exist no matter how hard it was forced to be drawn away… I found it there… impersonated in the form of a man and woman… in the middle of their thirties…She laid her exhausted head on his shoulder, with her eyes closed and his hand hugging hers… and that was it… In that despicable place ,It is really awkward to have a direct eye contact with someone who's not wearing a badge, since that someone will be then either a patient or his/her loved ones, and the feelings that their eyes will transfer to you can be painful and unbearable, as you will be given an uncategorized mixture of feelings which will be squeezed all together in one pot with vague boundaries that, unquestionably, will crack your soul; as it is so hard for you to control your boomed emotions that accompany such a one-second acquaintance. Each eye you look at, can easily hand over fear, agony, weakness, anger, frustration, desperate hope, and hatred…all together… It can donate all that and more… But, the calmness that folded that area, in that moment in time, gave me the needed confidence to look straight to his eyes… All I have seen was love… no worries… no pain… no fear… just love… In that split second, his eyes spoken to mine, saying that "I am going nowhere…I am here…through the good times…and through the bad times…I am here…not because I HAVE to…but because I WANT to"… Love was there…I found it there…or maybe it found me...just to prove that I was wrong, and for the first time in my life, I am so happy that I am!!!
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from United Kingdom
said:No..thank you..I'm glad I found this place!
from Jordan
said:Oh my God.
This poetically unbelievable !!
God knows, this is the sweetest thing ever. And I always wondered what were you doing in Al Hussain cancer center (your ip address), and I never dared to ask.
Allah eywaf2ek ! :)
It's a hard job. Love always find us in the most unexpected circumstances .
from Jordan
said:That’s sweet , but it only makes me wonder , is “love” for everyone !! will everyone fall in love in one part of his life , and even if he/she did , will he be able to spend the rest of his life with this someone !! actually this is one of the subjects that I get depressed when I talk about
+ Ammar... No thank you :D and I am so happy that I have found your place as well :) I truly enjoyed reading your article regarding faith...you presented great points regaring human's behaviour, and I just LOVE reading such useful articles that adds something to you :)
+Abed...
Well, mate :D So, you got me, ha ;) ? Yup, I work for KHCC, and it's depressing, but still I love my job to the bones, even though sometimes I feel frustrated, but still hanging on :D I am not a part of the medical staff, and that's why maybe it's harder on me, because , you know, they have a job to do, so they don't actually involve their emotions like the way we do…
Regarding this post, I wasn't actually talking about me loving somebody, I was talking about a man loving his wife, and I just felt this love.. just felt it...
I see people all the time, being there with someone who is diagnosed with cancer, and all you feel from them is that, they are mad, or worried, but I haven't seen this in this man, all I have seen is that he loved his wife so much, and he was just calm... I will never forget the look on his face when I looked at him... He loved her...and this gave me the strength and the belief that one day I will find someone who will care for me like that, or maybe just to know that there is still good people out there…and so in a way or another, I found love :)
Glad you stopped by, mate :)
+Mahjoob...
Hats off!!!
I think like that all the time, but at some point you just have to move on and see what life has to offer.
I am sure all of us will feel the love one day, maybe we won't be able to spend the rest of our lives with that someone, because "love" itself will never be enough, it's a bunch of other complementary issues that has to be there, to help the love grow and blossom, you know? We have to accept this fact, before searching for love…
love is to hurt someone and trust them to do that. you remind me of neverland she was a good jeeran.
aren't you the best
all my good friends here!
Wow. fantasia you touched my heart and strived my mind.
thank you :)
+Hamede,
Mate...Mate...why??? :D
I have to agree to some point, yes, you feel weak infront of the person you love...and some people will actually take the advantage of that…
I am sure Neverland will be happy to hear that :)
+The Caller,
I am so sorry your comment was deleted by mistake dear :( I am so glad to see you here again...Thank you very much for being so kind :)
from Jordan
said:yeah I got you long time ago, this is one disadvantage of reading IT professionals blogs :P
And el7amdolalleh you're working there, I was afraid you're a patient.
but you know what?? everybody is a patient or will be a patient one day, allahomma 3afeena :)
very touching story, and It's just one more evidence that true still (and will always) exist!
from Lebanon
said:Fantasia, Nice post, very touching and true!
I think to show love to ones partner in life is needed in the most hard of times....I hope that the wife you saw will recover and live happily ever after with her husband!
Thanks for visiting my blog today!
from United States
said:Fantasia,for some reason 1/2 of my comment is showing.
This is my original comment.
Love is giving someone the power to destroy you and trusting them not to,and the neverland part,thank you.
+ Abed,
I think I will stay away from you for a while ;) Kidding I can't do that...
And you are right, we all will get sick to some point, lets just hope that we will stay alive as long as we can take care of ourselves.
Amin :)
+ Summer,
Thanks for visit mine today :) And I do hope from the bottom of my heart that she will be fine...Enshallah...
+Hamede,
I dunno wallah mate... But thanks alot for your feed back!!!!! :)
But, I have to ask you though, do you actually believe that? if it happens this way, this isn't love, you know?... I mean, if someone was given this power, I believe it is such unhealthy relationship!!!...
from Jordan
said:Correction:
very touching story, and It's just one more evidence that true *LOVE* still (and will always) exist!
Yup, my friend :) It will always exist :)
Thanks for passing by :)
from Jordan
said:I am glad that you realized you were wrong :)
This is beautiful. A while ago Oprah showed something like this. They made it a movie I think. But the couple in love were old. It is very touching.
I believe that 2 people can maintain their love for all their lives.
Hi the observer,
Well...
Stuff like that happens, I didn't come up with something new, but it is something that I have felt... the patient's family usually come to support their loved ones, but all you can sense is misery and fear... this guy was so calm, and his way in holding her hand was something to remember and I will never forget that...
from Jordan
said:amazing post i must say :>
as they said in Moulin Rouge
"The best thing you will ever learn is to love, and be loved in return"
from Jordan
said:OMG this place is wonderful, god bless u girly :)
Maher,
Thanks for dropping by, and for your kind comment :)
Cooper Girl,
God bless you too girl :)
from United Arab Emirates
said:Fantasia.. this is so touching! i could actually picture everything you said.
True love.. i am not sure there's something like that.. for me it's either someone you think is interesting (you just met) then we think we love that person or someone we've been with a long time that we get used to being around them.
i really wish i am wrong.. but this is how i feel lately
from Jordan
said:I wish that you are wrong too my friend, because sometimes I have the same feeling of yours to be honest... Which is something I don't really want to believe in...
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wow..beautiful!